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15 June 2008 @ 05:47 pm
i want a concert sooo bad!
i haven't been in forever.

Colbie C--6/29
Rascal Flatts--8/1

these are taking place in Bham & ATL.

pick one & come with me!!!!
29 May 2008 @ 01:45 pm
these next 5 weeks are going to be the death of me. I have SOOO much due for 2 of my classes that I don't know what to do. I am going to be up late at nights & no socialization on the weekends. sad day for me...

I will be very happy when this is all over with!
28 April 2008 @ 10:21 am
Well it's been a while since the last LJ post. It's weird to think that I used to post in this thing once a day, sometimes more. Life in Auburn has gotten better. My life has really changed this semester in ways I didn't even think it would change. I believe it is all for the good though. It's hard sometimes, because I do miss some of my old friends. They were a big part of my life for awhile & it's hard to just let them go in a flash. But the thing that is making it easier is because I feel like most of them truely cared about me. Yea, they were nice & we had fun, but I could never go to them if I had a true problem. It never felt like family, and I am hoping this new group of friends will come to feel like that. I am in this grey area in my social life because I still miss my old friends, but I'm not all that close with these new people yet. I think this summer will change things since a lot of them will be around. I know God has put these people in my life, now I just have to wait and be patient. I am excited for school to be over. Only 3 exams away till freedom. Actually only 2 weeks of freedom then summer school. BLEH! I am really not looking forward to summer school. I FINALLY start my major classes, which I am excited about, but I hate the whole school thing. I am thinking this summer is going to be really hard & I am going to have to study a lot.

A lot is changing....I just hope I am ready for it.
Current Mood: draineddrained
25 March 2008 @ 08:24 pm

God is good!
& He is really working in my life
now that I have given it back to Him.
Thank you God for all you've done!
you are my rock!

28 January 2008 @ 09:16 pm
lately auburn hasn't felt like home like it used to. some of my friends have changed and don't seem the same anymore. i know i have changed a bit too, but not my personality. i just changed the way i live. i still have a ways to go, but i know it's for the better. me and my roomate used to be extremely close. lately it's like the only time i exist is when we go to church together on wednsday. and that's just because we live together and it's easy to carpool. we used to hang out all the time...now it's never. she hangs out with my other roomate who I believe doesn't like me. well what she said was she is uncomfortable around me. and i don't know why. i guess we just are very different and have different friend groups. we barely speak when we are at home together. friday when i got home from school Carley said that she is thinking about moving to atlanta. for school, work, and play. i mean if it is going to make her happy then i want her to be happy. but now i have to find another place to live. i can't stay here with AK since she doesn't really like me. i feel like every person(except amy) that i have lived with has just left me. i was so close to amber then she flipped out, then amanda never wanted to get to know me, and now this. i dont like the feeling of living with strangers. and i dont want to live alone. i think that i need to think about getting a single apartment though. which wont be so bad. i just don't want to feel alone. and when you live alone...that happens. auburn is just different this year. i am in NO way thinking of leaving...i just need to find a change that will make me happy. i left samford b/c auburn was the better choice. and it still is. i just need to find something or someone(s) to feel like home again. 

i dont like this.....
Current Mood: crappycrappy
07 January 2008 @ 05:10 pm
yea. so i'm back in auburn & i am glad! haven't really done anything since i've been back though. it's just been relaxing here at the house. i did go grocery shopping today--so that was something productive!! the rest of the day has just been reading & watching tv. i should go for a run, but it's too dark now. should have done it earlier! dang!

so i have been thinking about getting a tattoo since i was like 15, but have yet to get one. lately i have been thinking about it non-stop and i keep googling ideas. i posted pics up on myspace blog of some ideas that i really like. i also have the idea of writing the word "faith" in cursive somewhere. but it might take up too much room & i dont have that much to begin with.

this is an idea that will prolly never come true. i am too scared!! not really about the pain, but what the family would think & making sure i get the right one so that i dot regret it...

i still only have 6 hours this semester. i have to go to an advisor tomorrow & figure it out. i know i can get into my biology class so that gives me 4 more hours...i think. which gives me the minimum of 12 that i need. but i might drop golf. it's at 8am and im not sure i want to do it...so i need another class just in case. i am on the waiting list for an ethics class, but i doubt i will get into it....too many people need that class. i just can't think of another crap class to take. plus i hate dealing with the education advisors!! they are soooo f'in mean! ugh! but i ahve to do what i have to do...

erin's coming this weekend!!!! yay! we are trying to get becca to come too! friday needs to hurry up! there isn't much that goes on during the spring so i hope we can find something fun!

that's all i can think of to say right now...

p.s. cramps suck!!!

Current Mood: boredbored
17 December 2007 @ 07:18 pm
i have had this idea of what i want my perfect guy to be like. and i know that there is no perfect man out there. but there is a perfect guy out there for me. i watch all these dramatic shows and chick flicks filled with such love and passion. and that is what i want. i want a fairy tale. every girl deserves a fairy tale. fairy tales don't mean perfection, but they mean happiness for life. that's what i long for. that is what i deserve. now i haven't had a lot of guys flaunting all over me in my life. i've never been truely in love, but i know what i want. and in all thses years the idea of that perfect man hasn't changed. some of the guys i have liked have had some great qualities, but some things are just missing. i am person who is passionate about this little things...holding hands in the mall, kiss on the forhead, a smile that let's me know i mean the world to that guy, holding me tight while watching a movie with horrible acting--but it won't matter because we are together, a hug from behind, a sweet little note or text saying "have a good day," laughing at my corny jokes...and many more. i need a person who will try and make good out of any situation with me. a guy i can tell everything too, and i won't get judged for any of it. he's out there. and i can't wait to meet him. in some ways i think i am lucky that i haven't dated everyother guy i've met. because it's going to make me appriciate the one, and i am going to know it....not over time, but right away. i don't want to learn to love anyone. i want to love them. i want to take care of someone. when you fall in love that person needs to be there to catch you when you fall. that's what we all deserve. there are people out there that you can have such an awesome connection to, but sometimes that's not enough.
01 December 2007 @ 10:16 am
i'm so ready for christmas break! two more days of class then nasty finals! those are going to be killers! i have math-which won't be hard bc it's just the old tests. then biology is going to be a pain. there is just sooo much information to know. psyc is going to be bad as well. because from what i've found out this semester...i SUCK at psycology. world lit shouldn't be too bad. it's not cumulative so that's good! :)

i want to go home!!! i want a break!!!!
25 November 2007 @ 10:58 pm
i want to be in love.....and be loved back.
25 October 2007 @ 08:38 pm
i wish i could find the one who would say those things to me and mean it. i wish so badly sometimes.

ok...had to get that little bit of annoyance out of me. i am tired of studying. every week for the past 6 weeks i have had a test. i am tired of it. i dont want to study anymore!!!! well after tomorrow it will be over. i am pretty sure that i dont have anything for next week. which is great b/c it will be Halloween!!! the one night of the year where you can be anyone you want to be and no one can say anything about it. the one night where i dont have to be myself. i dont have to deal with reality. and i wont. Halloween will be a great night and i cant wait!!!